Life. It's an interesting roller-coaster that is always catching me by surprise. And this week has been no exception. Tuesday night I was hanging out, minding my own business, just listening to some music and working on some stuff for my job. I heard my phone so i looked at it. I stared at in in disbelief for a moment, then promptly threw it across the room. (It landed on a blanket so the phone is okay!!!) So, you may be wondering what kind of message would cause Jake to throw his precious iPhone? All it said was:
XXXX XXXXXX has added you as a friend on Facebook...
Obviously it said E's name, and not X's, but still I don't need anyone googling him and trying to go egg his car or something. Anyways, E is my ex. well maybe i should say THE EX. It was something that started out good, but never really progressed into something great. He treated me like crap, and when it ended it ended bad. I'm talking me not showering for a week and not eating and wanted the world to end bad. A couple of months after I had moved out, I heard from him again and we had this strange phone/text/email thing but only saw each other a couple of times. Even though we had broken up, I was still attached to him, still let him get to me and the cycle kept going...
The point is that I finally realized what I was worth, and realized that the "relationship" I had with E was toxic to me, and I owed it to myself to move on for good. So I did. And it ended badly again... but this time it really ended, and I had not even thought about him in months. Until this facebook friend request. I thought about it for a moment, then promptly hit the ignore button. I can't let him back in, and refuse to revisit that chapter in my life. Still I wonder why he thought that after all this time he should contact me. I guess it goes to show that we can never get some people out of or minds or hearts. But for me, he's not one of those people that is in either my heart or my mind...
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